Saturday, October 6, 2007

The Darkness Before The Revelation I

well well i am back with a serious blog this time. well i mean all my blogs are serious but this one will follow an up to date version of my constant frustrations.
This i will take as a prologue. well every book has a prologue. if i consider my life as a book then well this is my prologue. now there are other sorts of things like prequel,sequel and bla bla bla. well i will start before the time when i arrived to pune with a bunch of dreams wrapped in a bouquet. well one by one the the bouquet was unfolded and only a little of this dreams are left behind but what i think is that those are enough for me.
my first dream was......to get myself a super sexy girlfriend.... hehehehehehehehe
no one was/is interested in this nerdy jock........

my second dream was to search her... yeah someone special is here.even he is here.....both are here...so my dream is realized

my third dream was regarding her....but i fucked up my relationship with her in just 14 days[choddo din].well literally i fucked up my chance for one true love.....

well lots and lots of dreams but i have only one life....only one life to fulfill it all and i sometimes wonder if i am striving towards it.the road ahead is long but i have my necessary vehicles..well sometimes i feel the pang of loneliness when i see two lovers walking down the road..then i stop myself from getting too much emotional..well if you read this just i want to tell you that i still love you..you might get angry if i tell you that i tried to hook up with many a girls but no one were like you....and no one would be like you who made my heart sing well now the songs have stopped playing out...maybe the fact is that you don't love a irresponsible, fool, jocky nerd but this nerd loves you till now...maybe i am not sure if i wait for you will you wait for me so its better let mine love for thy remain one-sided..as you said earlier that i can't forcefully make you fall in love with me..well that's true...and i have even saved that sms you send me.maybe i have made some mistakes...but i am sure that my time in pune will be as interesting as your stay back at home........
well do you hear scorpions then hear that song still loving you.well i am still loving you but please you don't love me.but i plea to you that at least remain a very good friend of mine not even my best friend but only a very good friend of mine........but don't love me....

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